Fasting is a mind bending BDSM ritual for me

Today is Monday. I don't have anything to eat or drink from sunrise to sunset every Monday. Monday is special for the Hindu God Shiva and Hindu women fast on Mondays before marriage for a loving husband and after marriage for the long life and health of their husbands.

They typically break their fast by accepting Prasad (offering) that has been consecrated before God. Ideally you would like God to give you some food, but since that is not possible :-), we offer something to God and then eat it since now that food is considered holy. You eat Prasad before you eat anything else.  

All of you know by now that for me, my Swami stands in for God here on earth. Since I consider him my God, I do things a little differently; OK, a lot differently; lets not bicker about it shall we? :-)

After the sun sets, I break my fast by kneeling before my Swami after he gets home and get my offering directly from him, in the form of either his cum or his pee, depending on what Swami feels like offering me. Only then do I eat anything else. 

I call Monday's "Cumgee Mondays" after "Congee" which is a rice gruel often eaten by folks when they fast.

For me fasting on Mondays and then breaking the fast the way I do, is a totally mind bending experience. Why?

1. Every time my stomach growls and a thought appears in my mind that I am hungry and should eat something, another thought springs up and reminds me that I do this for Swami and then I get a Serotonin rush! Hard to describe unless you experience it. It is kind of the delicious ache you felt when you first fell in love! To get several of these mini rushes in a day is just incredible!
2. Fasting puts mild stress on my body and mind. I feel a little weaker and that feeling is a beautiful feeling for a 24x7 Slave like me. It is a gentle reminder of my status. After all a Slave cannot be a gluttonous! Whoever heard of a Slave like that!! Think of the rush that a submissive gets when spanked or disciplined. Reinforces the power dynamics right? Hunger is the same way. It makes my body and mind acutely aware of who I am. A Daasi to my Swami!! and every time I realize that, I experience an endorphins induced hunger orgasm.
3. Every Monday, I get my favorite snack in the evening. My Swami kids me that I don't eat all day because I just want the reward at the end of the day, and he may be partially right! When I have been fasting all day and then I kneel and unzip my Swami's pants and smell his cock and balls, I am pretty much reduced to a slobbering slut. Saliva is dripping from my lips  and pussy juices are leaking form my vaginal lips at the bottom. The best thing is, that in even in such a state, I don't have to beg for it or earn it, it is what my Swami has generously conferred on me because I am his wife. I do have to ask courteously that it is time for me to break my fast, and I do have to wait till my Swami is ready, but every Monday, I get my favorite snack without fail!!
   
4. Restricting your calories  is not such a bad thing after all. There is some evidence that calorie restriction slows the aging process and helps memory and prevent cardiovascular diseases.

Once I break my fast, I serve Swami his dinner and allow him to finish his dinner. Again watching him eat, while I wait is a beautiful reminder of our relationship. He used to be very uncomfortable eating before me, when I had fasted all day, but after all these years, I guess I have worn him down :-) Now he just enjoys his food and I enjoy watching him eat!

After he is done with his dinner, I have mine. 

I also don't eat certain kinds of food on Mondays. My diet is fairly simple, fruits, a little bit of yogurt, maybe some lentils, low sodium, not too much spice. Helps me get out of the mode of eating spicy food, which is one of my weaknesses. Fasting helps me regulate my addiction to spicy food once a week. That helps me spiritually. 

I started fasting on Mondays when I was 12 years old, after watching my Mom do it. It is now like brushing teeth, or taking a shower for me.

Combining the spiritual practice of fasting with the unique BDSM ritual of breaking my fast, makes Monday a happy day for me!

Happy Monday everyone!!